Everywhere I go, there’s a void by my side;
An empty space of a shadow
Of where you used to reside. 
Sometimes my hand subconsciously grasps for your warmth,
Then I remember you’re no longer my righthand,
You’re now some other girl’s hearth.

Our love burns like the summer sun;
Warm, comforting, ideal, fun. 
It began unexpectedly,
our thoughts and bodies intertwined, 
as if it had always meant to be.
Unpredictable in individual actions,
we loved with private passion.
We were partners in crime
without regards to time,
Like a sloth to a tree
were you and me.

Then I had to ask,
If you loved me in the summer, will you love me in the fall?
Then you asked for my love,
I’m sorry I’d only admit to liking you, I couldn’t put down that wall.
I’m sorry that our pride would not admit
that you and I could have had it all.
I had seen your kindness and all you had in store,
I can’t love until you’ve shown your true potential,
which is so much more.

I thought if stopped before season’s end,
I could salvage the glowing embers for us to go back to close friends.
I wanted to save us from the burning love we had caused.
I know you retorted,
why not just put everything on pause.
I was scared to lose you, so I thought better to choose now than too late,
Whether we give it our all,
Or nothing and let the relationship abate.
For our salvation, this was a decision that couldn’t just wait.
I didn’t want to continue to “wing it” living in the gray,
This was my way of prolonging your stay.
Sadly, my efforts were to no avail,
As I now helplessly watch our ship sail.

My love, once given, permanently stays,
Whether as lovers or friends,
I’d love you always.
However, aloofness is your proud mainstay,
And baby, that has lead even our friendship astray.

Your honey-coated words and promises I tried to believe, 
But actions before words, I need to see you achieve.
I am a dignified lady with no option but to leave.
You told me to trust you, let you be the man and lead, 
that you were raised to keep your words,
that you’re better than the bastard before indeed,
that you couldn’t imagine your future without me.

However, I hate sweet words that defy what I see,
I have given us all my efforts, and you’ve heard my plea,
So now I set any hopes for us free.

You have abandoned me,
and thus I have to give you up, 
Before my wounded pride might erupt.

Love is a permanence of a shard,
And you’ve already a piece of my heart.
So I’ll miss you every minute of everyday,
it’s an absence that won’t just go away.

But I am strong.
I woke up,
And can still go on.